A Grownup Christmas

You know that feeling, the first time you hear Christmas music, or see a sparkling, warm and dazzling isle with Christmas decor, garlands and snow globes? Or, taste a Gingerbread latte for the first time?
It's no secret that I'm a fan of Christmas. I'm a fan of what it symbolizes. Time with family, good food, love and laughter. Oh, and don't think I forgot about the true meaning, the birth of baby Jesus.
But for some reason that "special" feeling is no longer there. It seems every year it is there less and less... until it hit, I no longer have that feeling.

Why is it so important that I've that "feeling"?

It's a warm and inviting time of year that despite whatever is going on in your life, Christmas Magic takes over.

Well, after searching for that feeling for the last month or so, I realized, I now get the privledge to pass that feeling along to my children. So they can one day pass all their memories and traditions along to their families.
That thought in itself is so exciting, but I still have a longing for my old self.

I think when you have to deal with grownup problems in and around Christmas, it takes away from the joy and makes the wonder of Christmas dissipate.

Glen along with all the guys who were hired at the end of September, when we first moved here, were all layed off for two weeks, after the two weeks the boss finally called them up ( on November 28th ) and told them that there was no longer any work or contracts and that they would all be let go.
Thank God that Glen has a fantastic resume, and the big man is looking out for us, because Glen found a even BETTER job two days later, and started the following monday after.
But we've had to go 5 weeks living off 1/3 of a pay cheque. It really makes you appreciate how hard it is this time of year for the homeless and the needy.
This is our grown up Christmas, what's yours?

This song is so true and really describes how I feel.

Amy Grant- Grownup Christmas 

I was going to copy and paste it for you, but it's so incredibly long, I don't want to bore you... so I'll post a link, what's better than a video?! Enjoy, her entire Christmas album is fantastic!