Life as Jess.

I'm taking a bit of a hiatus from blogging because I'm embarking on a new adventure. A Adventure to pull myself together, spend quality time and treat myself how I should be treated.
It's been four sweet years of being a mommy. ( I count myself a mommy when I conceived ).
I love being a mommy, but it's stretched me physically ( har har ), emotonally, spiritually and mentally.
Giving birth to Cai it was like a switch went off. Anxiety. BAD anxiety... I've always had a short fuse... but having two under two seemed to trigger it. This is not to say I wasn't still a kickin' mommy. But, as many of you know, our relationship kinda halted. Right? I rarely left my house... my friends were on Facebook. Still are. Those of you who are still with me.
I became very negative, jealous and fearful. Oh, so fearful. I would get anxiety attacks about money, my weight.. what people thought of me. Oh, that's a cruel one. Why, oh why did I give a rats butt what people thought of me? Well, I did. So much so that I would lay in bed, unable to sleep because I was afraid I might of offended you or YOU in a certain way.
I was so negative. I felt like no one knew me. I was too embarrassed to say that anything was wrong with me. So when I posted me daily updates about how I was up every thirty minutes breastfeeding Cai all night. It wasn't about Cai at all. It was a cry for help.
Now I realize this all, and I'm setting myself free.

Right now I don't drive alone, and I rarely get out to see friends because It's a stressful situation for me and somehow I still want another baby because I love being a mommy THAT much.
I'd rather be friendless and stuck in my home and being a great mommy to three little babes!

But I'm hoping this will change VERY soon. As annoying as my constant Isagenix updates might seem, I'm hoping it will change me for the better. I already see positive results coming.
I'm allowing myself to be calm, collective. Think through things, say no.
It's day five today ( I'm cleansing the toxins out of my body ) But as of yesterday I had already lost 3.5 pounds and 5.5 inches. AMAZING.
As you've seen from my status updates I've also gained a TON of energy..... The Shakes and drinks you take every day are packed full of everything your body needs in a day.
No more coffee... and no more crap.

I'll keep updating you every few days/weeks to let you know how my progress is going. But as it stands I plan to buy another month and I'm buying IsaPro for Glen & Shakes and bars for the boys. Yep.. they're THAT good you can feed this stuff to your kids.
Oddly enough, I'm saving money on my food bill... At first I thought we would spend WAY over. I'm pretty frugal.
But this week I made a big batch of spaghetti, soup and pizza... and the boys have been OVERLY happy to eat leftovers for supper. 

Anyways, if interested in jumping on the bandwagon with me... take a look at my site! Or if you just want to watch and wait for all the goodness to fill my life, do that too!
It's only day five on this and it  makes me want to scream, with delight. I felt dead before. Honestly.

This is how I felt, maybe you can relate:
-Exhausted, constantly...Like I weighed 1000 pounds.
-Sleepy
-Bloated
-Sad
-Stressed out
-Anxiety
-Negative sometimes
-Goaless
- Skin was always dry/breaking out...
-Bad cravings

*Don't mind the hair, but this is on day 4. *

I'm sure there's more to add to the list, but those are the main ones. I'm not joking when I say that Isagenix is starting to change every thing on that list. Just watch me grow....
ALSO: If you sign up, I really don't get anything out of it...what I get out of it is to see you grow happier, healthier and skinnier!

http://jesssmorris.isagenix.com