Sorry for the lack of posting in the last week. We made a short trip back to the Island and then spent the remainder of our holiday throwing up. Yes, throwing up.
I've been off my rocker and really depressed since Christmas night. Christmas time is the one time of year you know it wont dissapoint. The magic is there, love, joy and family... regardless how much you have or how little you have, it's Christmas.
Christmas music warms my soul, yummy baking is fun to eat...and the anticipation of Christmas makes me so excited!
I feel like I got ripped off this year. I spent up to Christmas stressing, then I got the flu on the 26th. cold and exhausted... which lead to throwing up and aches days later, and it went through our entire house.
I sound so greedy. I should be happy because I've my health, my beautiful children and eachother... but the fact of the matter is, I'm not.
Christmas is one time of year I can count on. It's always there. I don't know what's going to happen next week. I can't have another year like last year... I don't know what 2013 is going to be like.
It could be amazing, but it could be awful too.
This is NOT a positive way to look at the future. But it's how I've been feeling the last few days. It may still be a symptom of my flu... as I'm still gaining my immune system back. Why do the holidays rip so fast past us?
I'm trying to see that everyday has blessings and joy! My goal this week/weekend is so love life again. Not just the holidays.
Thanks for letting me vent, and maybe once I'm back to my normal state of mind, I'll start sending off some real blogs.
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