The future is now, so enjoy it!

It's funny how my emotions can be so different from day to day.  I'm still young and I've yet to realize in the moment that when I'm overtired ( like my children ) that probably means I'm going to be outrageous, and think negatively and wonder , what the crap is wrong with me?!
My mother often reminds me that maybe I'm tired. Then I turn on my PVR and click on one show...then the next.
Yes, I went to bed thinking, there must be something wrong. Why am I not happy? Well, it worked itself out that once I got a good night sleep my mind went back to normal progression and not on overload.

It's funny how this works. I often like to do a self diagnosis on myself, I like to know why and how. Life doesn't work like that. It's a progression of lessons, trails and periods of happiness. My biggest thing right now is trying to be content and at peace throughout it all.
I'm the kinda girl that likes to count down to events or days. So much so that sometimes I let the excitement for that day cloud the right now. It's something I think a lot of us struggle with.
But it's something I REALLY want to change this year. I'm not a huge fan of resolutions... I just think Jan 1st is a very convenient starting point. I'm determined to live in the now and be happy with my choices, regardless if it's a boring day or a exciting day.

As I write this, I've the cutest little boy sitting next to me practicing his number and alphabet. Every couple minutes he looks over at me and sais, "mom-mom, look!" He's so proud of himself, I like to soak these moments in as they are growing up so fast.  Maybe it's why I snap so many pictures.
I often look back through my albums and memory chips and just soak up our past life.

So, in conclusion, I'm off to snuggle a bit with my baby and enjoy maybe not a exciting day, but a day that I'm sincerely blessed to have.